I know it’s been awhile since my last post here. I’ve had difficulty finding time to write because I’ve been dealing with a big handful of professional, personal and family health challenges the last four months. Well, actually, it’s more accurate to say that I have had two big, gigantic handfuls of things to deal with. And I’m sure as heck not keeping hold of those things, lol! It’s been stressful to say the least.
This past week, things hit the fan again and fear, stress and sadness engulfed me once more. I wasn’t prepared for another hit, and last night I cried myself to sleep.
Early this morning, I woke and was feeling terrible. The fear, worry and sadness from the previous couple of days hadn’t improved any and quickly began to get worse. The stress reached a fever pitch and I found myself crying uncontrollably. I called out to God for help, desperately wanting guidance and peace. I was terrified and the stress was so intense it made me feel as though my head and body were being twisted like a Gumby doll.
But in that moment, God sliced through the walls of my pain and suffering and brought a peace over me. It showed me that He is right by my side- He always has been, He’s there in the midst of this pain and stress and he’s been there all along. These last four months I’ve felt like Gumby, too and He’s gotten me through all of it, and He’s there with me now, too.
Somehow I got lost in the ocean of life and was feeling swallowed by the waves of difficulty. It’s so easy to get lost in the confusion of life (especially for me). Sometimes we fall down and can’t get up on our own; it’s then that God reaches down and gently puts us back on our feet and takes our hand to lead us out of whatever we’re going through.